A series of letters

Dear friend,

There are some people in this world, who feel many things but cannot seem to utter the words to explain exactly how they feel. I am one of them. All throughout my life, I have felt many things towards many people and at one point, I was convinced it was love and at another I was convinced it was infatuation. Although now, I know that it's neither. You see, I like to believe that as I matured, so did my understanding of things and feelings. Although I'm still getting the hang of it, I somewhat know how to determine whether it's love, infatuation, or if I'm simply fond of a person. Although recently, I feel like my maturity has taken an awful turn for the worse. I tend to ask or want people but when I finally have them within my grasps, I realise that they're not for me. It's like when you're shopping, you take a shirt from the rack in hopes that it'll suite you, although when you try it on you eventually realise that it just isn't for you. I am like that with most boys I encounter. I know it sounds like I'm full of myself but I apologise although, I am not at fault for whatever aspect of myself they find interest in. Trust me, I'm just as surprised as you are.


To the people who I thought I loved.

Love is such a strong word, and I'm sorry that you thought I loved you, and I apologise if I said or did anything that made you believe I loved you like that. I want you to know that I don't mean to write this to hurt you, instead I want to clarify with you. I want to start of with saying that my heart is filled with love and I want to be able to give it to everyone. I'm sorry if I made it seem like I could contain my love for only one person (you). I take full responsibility of my actions, and I'm sorry. But please know, that I want both of you to succeed and I think that you are such a good person. I know that someday, you'll find someone who appreciates everything that you do. I'm sorry that I couldn't be that person for you right now. But keep looking, and I assure you that you'll find her someday. I wish you joy and happiness, but most of all I wish you the best.


There are many people in my life that I have grown fond of and each and everyone of them has a special place in my heart, and they're so special that I can't even write a general letter for them. So I'll just focus on one as of now.

To you,

Hi. I know that God sent me to be your prayer partner that night, and I know that God also planned for me to be your spiritual guide. I want to apologise because I acted so immaturely and I was probably not in the position to say the things that I did. Whether it was true or not, I know that you're trying to change and I can see that. I know that we're not even close enough to talk about your actions and I'm sorry if I overstepped. With whatever you're doing, I know that God is proud of you and I know that you know what you're doing. Please know that I really am genuinely sorry for the way I acted. I wanted to apologise before you left, but it seemed as if something was bothering you so I didn't want to add to anything, and also I didn't have the guts to. I don't want to burn bridges with anyone, that's why I'm saying sorry. I'm saddened that all of this had to happen towards the end  because I was, and still am quite fond of you. Don't get me wrong, I have no feelings for you whatsoever, you still can't fool me with your tricks, but I am fond of you as a human being. You were very polite when I asked if I could pray for you, and you were very respectful and kind during the walk. I thank you for cooperating. And the next day, you were very friendly, and I appreciate that you listen to me carefully and supported me when I would talk in front. Your deeds, my friend are not under appreciated. I hope that the next time that we see each other, everything will be mended. I pray that all your dreams and hopes come true. I know that you are a good son, a good boyfriend, and a good brother. I pray that your faith is strengthened and that you are kept safe all throughout your pursuits.