Prom feelsI

Dear friend,

Junior year. A year wherein the pressure for the future usually begins and honestly I feel like I already failed and my brain feels like mush. And if there's one more thing they're going to add to the absolute bullshit, that is our future they're going to add the fact that there is prom this year.

It's like every guy I even try to like is already waiting for somebody else, and I just wish they would stop waiting for somebody else because I am right here but it's just hard for me to wait for someone who is waiting for someone else and I'm not a slut or anything but I guess I'm still trying to get over "last year" and there's "this year and guess what? they're both waiting for somebody else. I mean I know I'm getting over "last year" it's just hard for me to see him like this and talk about someone else to me, but I don't blame him because I never really told him that I had feelings for him and for "this year" I do want to like him, it's just that he's waiting for somebody else and I have no life. I just want a boy I'm not really desperate or anything but it's prom and I kinda just want it to be special because I am seriously considering taking international baccalaureate next year, I mean I want to stay for senior year but I really am thinking about my future and I just want to be successful.

xx