Dear Friend,
Do you know that awkward moment when you kind of flirt with someone as a joke because well it's funny and it's fun for a while until one person falls for the other. In this case it's me who fell which isn't a surprise because I fall in love just a little bit everyday with someone new I am still pretty convinced that Hozier wrote that song for me, anyways I'm not saying I'm in love with him and that I want to marry him in my life time that barely happens to me, that I completely give myself to someone except for one person of course & God.
I just really think that feelings are hassle I mean everything was so much better when feelings didn't have to come in and ruin everything now I'm literally conscious about everything I do when I'm around him. This is so unfair.
xx
Kim
Tuesday, November 24, 2015
Sunday, November 22, 2015
Let me be blunt
Dear Friend,
I'm gonna make this blunt because I'm drowning in school work and I kinda just need to breathe. Ok so today I saw A, I don't know if you still remember him but we've grown a lot since the last time I've told you about him and it was normal because were really good friends.
And while he was performing my friend asked me what if one of our friends dated him and it's actually kind of okay because I mean I love him I really do and he has a really big space in my heart but not like that anymore. I care about him and no matter what I am going to protect him and defend him when he needs me and not because I used to have feelings for him but because that's just how I am with my friends and I'm really happy with where we stand right now. I can really talk to him and be open and I love him I really do I'm just glad it's not that way anymore.
Ok were friends but there will always be that part of me that never really moved on I know that's so contradicting because I just said I didn't like him that way anymore but I will always care for him. And there will never be an occasion that I won't think about what he's doing or what he's thinking or if he's ok because he's my first love and I can't change that, and I wouldn't because it's been a good ride huney but now we'll see how we'll be in our situation
xx
Kim
I'm gonna make this blunt because I'm drowning in school work and I kinda just need to breathe. Ok so today I saw A, I don't know if you still remember him but we've grown a lot since the last time I've told you about him and it was normal because were really good friends.
And while he was performing my friend asked me what if one of our friends dated him and it's actually kind of okay because I mean I love him I really do and he has a really big space in my heart but not like that anymore. I care about him and no matter what I am going to protect him and defend him when he needs me and not because I used to have feelings for him but because that's just how I am with my friends and I'm really happy with where we stand right now. I can really talk to him and be open and I love him I really do I'm just glad it's not that way anymore.
Ok were friends but there will always be that part of me that never really moved on I know that's so contradicting because I just said I didn't like him that way anymore but I will always care for him. And there will never be an occasion that I won't think about what he's doing or what he's thinking or if he's ok because he's my first love and I can't change that, and I wouldn't because it's been a good ride huney but now we'll see how we'll be in our situation
xx
Kim
Saturday, November 14, 2015
A little prayer
Dear God,
If you were in front of me right now, I wouldn't know what to do. Don't even get me started with all the emotions I would feel. I would feel angry with myself, and at the same time I would cry my eyes out because I know I don't deserve to be in your presence nor your love.
But as for now, I know that your spirit's strong in me. I can feel you and I see you too but in a different perspective. I'm going to keep this short, so here it goes God, some of the things I want to say to you because obviously if I told you everything it would be a never ending blog.
-I'm always tired and I don't know why and I pray that I get through school because I am just so emotionally and physically tired all the time.
-I am so passionate about the people around me but sometimes it hurts to care too much.
-I feel like I'm a switch that goes on and off. Sometimes I really feel your presence and sometimes, I feel just feel so dry but I know that you've got me.
-I feel like I need to do something about my SLAP every night because I know that I need it in my life right now and forever of course.
-I feel like I'm struggling to do my job as an officer because I don't know how to move, because I can't do it myself.
-I feel like there are so many obstacle that I am facing faith wise.
-I really love to be your missionary especially in my home church but sometimes I feel like my personality is too strong that I begin to boss around others.
-Lastly, God I just really pray that you guide me through everything that I'm going through and of course the people around me especially those in my church. I also pray for all the churches around the world facing any challenges that they're having a hard time to overcome. And of course the tragedies that are happening all over the world, please guide them and always remind them that your love can conquer all. They just have to strong in you.
Amen.
xx
Your humble servant,
Kim
If you were in front of me right now, I wouldn't know what to do. Don't even get me started with all the emotions I would feel. I would feel angry with myself, and at the same time I would cry my eyes out because I know I don't deserve to be in your presence nor your love.
But as for now, I know that your spirit's strong in me. I can feel you and I see you too but in a different perspective. I'm going to keep this short, so here it goes God, some of the things I want to say to you because obviously if I told you everything it would be a never ending blog.
-I'm always tired and I don't know why and I pray that I get through school because I am just so emotionally and physically tired all the time.
-I am so passionate about the people around me but sometimes it hurts to care too much.
-I feel like I'm a switch that goes on and off. Sometimes I really feel your presence and sometimes, I feel just feel so dry but I know that you've got me.
-I feel like I need to do something about my SLAP every night because I know that I need it in my life right now and forever of course.
-I feel like I'm struggling to do my job as an officer because I don't know how to move, because I can't do it myself.
-I feel like there are so many obstacle that I am facing faith wise.
-I really love to be your missionary especially in my home church but sometimes I feel like my personality is too strong that I begin to boss around others.
-Lastly, God I just really pray that you guide me through everything that I'm going through and of course the people around me especially those in my church. I also pray for all the churches around the world facing any challenges that they're having a hard time to overcome. And of course the tragedies that are happening all over the world, please guide them and always remind them that your love can conquer all. They just have to strong in you.
Amen.
xx
Your humble servant,
Kim
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