Dear Friend,
Today is the first day of the year and of course I'm still camp high. As you know, every year I go to church camp and of course I get to re-kindle my christian flames. I've been going to camp for the last 5 years, but this year was a bit different. I learned that sometimes the things we do for Jesus may seem redundant and useless, but like in karate kid wax on, wax off and pick up your jacket.
As you know, the past camps the only boys that I've ever taken seriously was A & B and both of them were for different and immature reasons. So first let me give you an update. A and I are really close now, but as friends. I often confide in him because we are both part of the executive committee which I am so grateful to be part of. He now has a girlfriend and she knows how to treat him right, which makes me very happy.
B now also has a girlfriend and is barely active in our church. It makes me sad that he choose to give up on our church so easily but of course he may have his reasons. Although now his girlfriend and him are happy and often put God first rather than each other. That makes me happy as well.
You may think that I'm sad because everyone has seemed to move on and has left me behind, but I'm not. I now understand that God has been asking me to wait for the right person to come into my life, someone I truly deserve. Someone whom I love as much as they love me.
This camp, I met D. In our first small group meeting, I was so sad because I wasn't in the same small group as B and P ( I had a small crush on P last camp, but that doesn't really matter ) so when I sat down, I saw D and though he was kind of cute but I didn't really mind it because I was busy thinking about how my shoes were getting ruined and about how I needed to do stuff for finance so I just let it slip off.
And so the second day came and as finance, I was selling shirts because that was my project and he just approached me and all of his friends made that kilig sound. So of course I didn't want to assume that it was for me so again, I just let it slip off I didn't really believe that it was for me until my "big sis" told me about it but of course being the big sis that she is, she always stretched the truth because she was teasing me.
Again, I didn't really believe it as much until the second day, one of my favourite big brothers came to visit. Of course as usual we caught up, I said hi and he asked for jokes so on and so forth. After we've caught up I really needed to pee until he called up on the stage where they were all sitting and asked if I could have a picture with him and he hid in his hoodie which I thought was adorable.
The last day, the same thing happened another picture and so now I messaged him but that was last night, and now I still don't think he doesn't get the big picture that I want him to try because I think that we could be good for each other. I don't know if he's going to grow a pair and message me but he has to now that the fact that I even want to talk to him on new year's day already says something right. Although of course it's up to God if he wants him in my life or not.
xx
Kim
