Dear friend,

Do you know what sucks? What sucks is liking someone who loves someone else and you know what else sucks? Is when you're right there to witness it all happen, you're there through all their downs and you're there through all their ups. Oh and another thing that sucks is that overthinking because what if  you had had made a move earlier before they even happened? Would it have turned out different? probably not.

It just sucks because you have to stand there and fall slowly and do nothing about it and you're actually there for him and knowing he's never gonna like you back makes you feel like absolute shit.

And it sucks because I spend so much time with him and yet I still know that i'm never gonna be good enough for him, and seeing them hurts. It hurts, mostly because I'm so comfortable with him, and I've been looking for that comfortability for so long and I could literally tell him anything and do anything around him. And you know what else sucks? Is the fact that were "just friends" actually you know what it doesn't even suck, it just hurts.